Contrary, I suspect, to the opinion of many others, I am very much aware that I have self focussed and blatantly selfish ways. If I did not have these, I would likely slot into the social frabric  more readily. But the self-centred streak is very much an instinctive part of my personality.

There are a number of points to make on this matter.

First, that I am not always self-centred. This does not permeate my every action. Indeed, I go to the other extreme, and can be very empathic and generous, often spontaneously so.

Second, the inherent difficulty with my variety of selfishness is that it can be inflexible. If I do not want to do something, I struggle terribly, for instance.

Third, that it is not inherently bad to be selfish. Albert Einstein might well have failed to achieve much if he had had a more easy going nature. A self focus can create an intensity that can achieve immense deeds. Selfish in terms of possessiveness  is a tricky one, however. It is harder to see a plus side. But Ifeel that I am not so tainted with this aspect.

This self-focus is described in me and others by a profile more than an absoluteness.  Much as I am sensitive in many ways, but insensitive in others.

But the key point I want to make is that self focus, along with many other seemingly negative attributes (such as aggressiveness) all have their place. It is, in a way, an inherent feature of intense researchers or writers or inventors or actors.

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